Drop the car at the garage and walk home,
because there is no bus and taxi expensive
and in me a need to stretch alone legs,
without the tether of short ones and watching in traffic.
Head along one of the 'better' areas, debris free
and children shouting in the playground,
peer through the local shop, deli delights
but I don't go in, will be expensive.
Round the bend and along and a choice,
up onto the main road or cut across the park,
indecision thoughts, quiet in the grey afternoon
and bushes for lurkers.
Remind myself a life not lived is a life not lived
will be nice to feel the trees,
enter and silence and couple waking their springer,
cutting up into intersection and a steep hill,
bench sit and flick The Big Issue.
Spots, splitter, splatter, aware I look strange
reading in the rain, breath back, butt in bin,
get up to follow white macked lady and scruffy dog,
feel like a pacing giant behind in bover boots.
Gaining, a quiet turn in the woods,
feel like a stalker and fear as I close in behind,
say 'hello' as I pass, reassure and relief,
head out onto the road.
Signs and gravel shift sound of traffic,
orders, red stop, green go,
Do Not Park Here,
Equinox, lined directions, black on yellow,
sounds inspiring.
Purple lucozade empty splat and I cut across the road,
ignore herding grills and jump onto turf,
more paper rubbish, nearing home.
Cross, another instruction, something of interest.
Says 'Plymouth Corporation Tramline 1923', in stone.
Not Plymouth City, second time in weeks I have seen this,
google search reveals nothing, but The Guardian advertises jobs
for The City of Plymouth Corporation and The City of London Corporation,
follow the link -
http://jobs.guardian.co.uk/job/939724/think-family-coordinator/What do I think?
That my city, my life and the world is a corporation,
that I am afraid to walk in parks but not in the woods far from the city,
that one area of the Plymouth City Corporation feels safer to walk, than the
other with its rubbish, drunk, drugged in the morning, graffiti and homeless.
That for someone somewhere, I am a number not a name,
that just because there is no branding on my skin,
does not mean I am not owned.
I walk on, rain starts coming down, misting my glasses,
and Equinox is revealed as the marketing office of a corporation,
wonder briefly why house builders have a road sign,
the chemist in the village is friendly and warm and recognised,
I cut down side streets, offer a man struggling with his shopping a hand
and cross the road home.